I Called In Sick Today

[Sickinfo2 291]

Just turned around and the Fedex guy was standing at the shop door holding a package and staring at me playing the previously mentioned air drums...

 

 

 

 

Didnt miss a beat... just told him Id be finished with the set in a minute

 

 

 

 

He shook his head and left the box...

[InternetExplorer 2,609]

you were making drum/cymbal noises I hope?

[Ron_Mexico 4,219]

If you're bored and still like poker, Grantland.com did a pretty solid oral essay of the 2003 Main Event. It was a great time killer at work today.

[ShakeZuma 585]

bet that'd be a handjob worth having

[NickCave 194]

I think you get the point. Who the hell has time to be depressed? Get busy. Make some stupid unrealistic goals and don't accomplish them, wash.rinse.repeat.

 

People think they are their own conscious which is laughable. Your conscious has two people or sides, think of them as the angel and devil, or whoever (Mastt Damon vs Brittany) and they are both constantly whispering in your ear what to do. It's important to recognize that and talk back to them. Don't ignore them. If people aren't looking at you like your crazy then you are doing it wrong. One says, "Go get some KFC!" You have to realize that the mother ****** doesn't have your interest at heart and is a mean bastard laughing as you gobble up buckets of grease. He's like the scorpion that stings the frog because it's in his nature. Really, it's just our evolutionary self telling you do the things that you need to survive, eat, breathe, masturbate etc.. But it doesn't have a governer to control the amount of horsepower. You have to do that.

 

Are you a crazy person? The bolded parts are... disturbing. The entire paragraph is disturbing, but the bolded parts are "please get away from my child he is only a child" disturbing. You should not be giving anyone mental health advice. Your heart might be in the right place, but you need to stop. Whatever you were doing when you wrote that, stop doing it forever

 

 

And really the only thing stopping you from doing most things is yourself. The reason most don't run is because their brain tells them to stop, not because they can't physically do it. Recognizing that is how you overcome it. You turn off the voice, tell it you are not going to do that stupid shit, and eventually it goes away and comes back to nag somewhere else. That's really how I quit drinking. I rarely urge the urge to imbibe any more, but I know that if I do it's no big deal.

 

And really, the best thing for depression is eating and exercise, but you are probably too depressed to take that up. You have to think long term though and remember a dream is only over if you achieve it or you give up. That's also called irony. Listen to what the great greek of lumpy tennis shoes has to say, "Just do it!"

 

And really, do beans or I sound depressed? No. Do we seem crazy? Of course. We're like Yoda laying out the blueprint for you young pups. Get busy.

 

 

I can't let some of this go without commenting on it.

 

Depression is a serious medical condition. It is not cured by "exercise and diet." There is a difference between hating yourself because you're fat and out of shape, and suffering from a major depressive episode. In the first, you're like, "Jesus, look at me. I'm such a fat fucking slob. My clothes don't fit, I've got tits, and I'm out of breath after a 3-minute beat session." Then you cut your caloric intake by 1/3, run 5 miles a week, and spend 20 minutes a day working on your arms and chest. Two months later you're all, "Hey, what up ladies wanna fuck I have killer pecs and my dick just grew a half-inch."

 

In the second, you're like, "I don't take any pleasure in anything at all anymore. I can barely get out of bed some days. I am absolutely not in control of my life. I am in so much pain that I spend a significant amount of my life considering whether or not I'm suicidal, or just a pussy. There have been times I honestly, in that moment, wished I were dead. Maybe the only thing that stopped me from killing myself is I'm just a pussy." Then you cut your caloric intake by 1/3, run 5... I'm going to bed, because nothing matters. Nobody matters. I might be physically unable to make myself do things. Even when I do do things, I don't care, because lol nothing matters.

 

"Just do it?" No, that's... you're saying, "Hey, are you depressed? I have an idea what if you just STOP BEING DEPRESSED?!" And, in case it isn't absolutely clear, no. That is not a thing that is a thing that is doable. It is nonsense, and proves you have no grasp of what depression is. It is not, "I am sad." Everyone gets sad. Depression is, "I am sad and I am always sad and I will always be sad and maybe I wish I were dead."

 

There are degrees of depression, obviously, and it sounds like Sick Info 2 was suffering from anhedonia, but not a major depressive episode. He was suffering from (what I am guessing is) MILD TO MODERATE DEPRESSION and needed medication after a year to break out of it.

 

"Go for a run and be happy" is not a realistic solution. I truly hope you never suffer from anything a quick jog and less cream cheese on your bagel can't fix.

 

[Essay21 2,385]

That's what I was gonna say but I'm too depressed to bother typing it all out.

[Ron_Mexico 4,219]

Someone is sensitive about depression

[Ron_Mexico 4,219]

This new guy doesn't realize that the clowns here aren't really depressed (besides Strat) they just need some vag

 

 

My medical degree is pending

[Essay21 2,385]

He's absolutely right though. Depression can't be fixed by going for a jog. It's a serious disorder. It's a common tension around here when people keep telling those of us on that side to just change and start doing things differently.

[NickCave 194]

Someone is sensitive about depression

 

I would argue I'm more sensitive to condescension and stupidity.

 

But, yeah, I probably get overly tetchy when people are dismissive of depression. It's not fair to expect someone who hasn't been there to understand, so in most cases, railing about it is silly.

 

Not this case, though. In this case it was well deserved. Just do it.

 

This new guy doesn't realize that the clowns here aren't really depressed (besides Strat) they just need some vag

 

 

My medical degree is pending

 

Not sure if you're semi-serious, but I've been getting maaaaaaaaaad pelt, and still had to fake every human interaction for 3 months because I could barely remember what a feeling was. Ironically, many anti-depression drugs are total libido killers.

[ShakeZuma 585]

I've never understood the "not feeling emotions" type of depression. for me it's always been the "I hate myself, I hate everything, life is horrible, full of sadness etc." type of crap. so lots of feelings. all of them bad. mostly rage too. looooots of rage. hoowee so much rage!

 

 

been happy since I bought my chainsaw though. maybe you just need a chainsaw nick?

[Napa_Don 688]

Yeah, Nick basically just described a day in the life of me. Granted the stuff Ronnie said certainly isn't helping, but it's more than just that. Might even have a nice little dose of PTSD mixed in there still from when I was younger that went untreated.

[NickCave 194]

I've never understood the "not feeling emotions" type of depression.

 

It's rarely that extreme. Usually it manifests as simply feeling less. Imagine a sine curve. That's normal. Now cut the amplitude in half (and probably shift the curve down). That's kinda what it's like. The highs are just... lower. Or nonexistent.

[NickCave 194]

been happy since I bought my chainsaw though. maybe you just need a chainsaw nick?

 

I can't imagine it could hurt.

 

***thinking***

 

Actually... yeah I can.

[NickCave 194]

Yeah, Nick basically just described a day in the life of me. Granted the stuff Ronnie said certainly isn't helping, but it's more than just that. Might even have a nice little dose of PTSD mixed in there still from when I was younger that went untreated.

 

Were you in a war or something?

[Ron_Mexico 4,219]

Yeah, Nick basically just described a day in the life of me. Granted the stuff Ronnie said certainly isn't helping, but it's more than just that. Might even have a nice little dose of PTSD mixed in there still from when I was younger that went untreated.

 

What the hell did I say?

 

 

 

Were you in a war or something?

 

I think he was kicked in the head by a horse

 

 

Oh, nevermind. Scratch my post from above

[Ron_Mexico 4,219]

While I'm making a joke about Herman's head being kicked, I'm starting to think I remember something about that actually happening.

 

 

While I joke about just getting some vag and you all being pussies, which you are. I also believe in depression and sincerely believe that if its actually the case, go see someone and work on getting medicated. Don't cry poor or say you're too depressed to do it. Nothing is more important than taking care of yourself. Not a chainsaw, diesel jeans, a member's only jacket or eating chipotle every day. Get it done

[ShakeZuma 585]

yeah I want to hear napa's nam story now.

 

 

 

also, nick: what the fuck is this, high school? don't come at me with that sine curve shit. tell me like, imagine it's like a football, but not inflated. or, imagine it's a big ole tit, but there's a weird mole on it or something. yeah, something like that. sine cuve. this fucking guy.

[Essay21 2,385]

I don't eat chipotle every day. 4 days a week tops.

[ShakeZuma 585]

Nothing is more important than taking care of yourself.

 

see but that's the problem: when you're really super depressed, you think that's the least important thing.

[Ron_Mexico 4,219]

I do appreciate the opinions on depression, even with the curve reference I don't get, but he needs to step up off Uncle Randy's shit a little. There was a better way to handle that. Either blow it off, use humor or ignore it. Mean natured stuff ain't cool.

 

 

[NickCave 194]

yeah I want to hear napa's nam story now.

 

 

 

also, nick: what the fuck is this, high school? don't come at me with that sine curve shit. tell me like, imagine it's like a football, but not inflated. or, imagine it's a big ole tit, but there's a weird mole on it or something. yeah, something like that. sine cuve. this fucking guy.

 

It's like, what if you had a squiggly line, and it went from really squiggly to less squiggly. And also what if you put two dots in the right place so it looked like a sad face, maybe.

 

It's like that.

[Ron_Mexico 4,219]

I don't eat chipotle every day. 4 days a week tops.

 

Bump it to 5 and you might hang that cashier.

 

 

 

see but that's the problem: when you're really super depressed, you think that's the least important thing.

 

Ok, fair enough, but then my question would be, is there never moments of clarity that tells you you need help? Clearly there has been because you are conscious enough to talk about it here, recognize it and at one point, weren't you taking something? And as far as the libido, I'm sure a doc would toss you some cialis to go with the meds

[JubilantLankyLad 1,957]

It's like, what if you had a squiggly line, and it went from really squiggly to less squiggly. And also what if you put two dots in the right place so it looked like a sad face, maybe.

 

It's like that.

 

It's like this

 

goes to

 

this. Moustache-wise.

[Napa_Don 688]

While I'm making a joke about Herman's head being kicked, I'm starting to think I remember something about that actually happening.

 

 

While I joke about just getting some vag and you all being pussies, which you are. I also believe in depression and sincerely believe that if its actually the case, go see someone and work on getting medicated. Don't cry poor or say you're too depressed to do it. Nothing is more important than taking care of yourself. Not a chainsaw, diesel jeans, a member's only jacket or eating chipotle every day. Get it done

 

Oh, I've been kicked in the head a few times. One time that really stands out, and what you're probably thinking about, is when I got bucked and the horse kicked my head and also my jaw/neck resulting in a horseshoe print bruise for a few days. Another time I landed on my head/neck real bad. Still can't move my neck that far to the left from that.

 

 

And to your other point...you're probably right about that. I should go to a doctor of some sort. It's just all so overwhelming on where to start because I don't want to just take meds, I'd like to figure this out if I can, in addition to meds if necessary. And I can't imagine it's super likely to find the right therapist on the first try. And then it just gets back to, f it, whats the point. Also, there's a little bit of I think I'd like to get my pilot's license in the near future and I know they look at that shit super strict and having records of depression could get in the way of that. And possibly in the future of purchasing a gun.

 

And I assume you figured it out, but I meant that you saying "its just the being fat and not getting vag" is probably a contributing factor as well. But this stuff goes back way further than when I was super fat. Like, childhood.

 

yeah I want to hear napa's nam story now.

 

I don't want to get into it all because it's embarrassing to even talk about it and you'll all call me a pussy and tell me to just get over it already but it goes back to when my mom collapsed and I gave her CPR like 9 years ago.