You guys used to tolerate my ramblings, so here is a fairly random one...
I saw these two posts shortly after all of this happened and wanted to give myself a week or two to try to comprehend how I felt about all that happened. I've received a lot of input and congratulations and questions from a lot of people, and people seem to universally fall into either the Strat group or the Randy group. I had been trying to figure out which group I fell into, when over time it's become clear I fall into both. Obviously, I am really happy about the money-even after sending a heap of it to the government it will end up going directly towards a house, which is a really nice down payment and will result in me being even more secure in my life situation than I already was. I've always tried to frame my poker playing around taking +ev shots at life-changing money, and while this money doesn't really change my life significantly, it is at the very least life affirming.
However, the process of winning said money was pretty painful. Drags (Strat's older bro) said he told a friend that that's probably the most miserable 100k I'll ever win, and it's hard to envision a scenario where he's not right. The experience of the final table-getting there, seeing all the pomp and circumstance, being the center of attention, and then getting the money in the first hand and losing after the absurd tank by Gross is not one that will resonate on a positive level for me, perhaps ever. The WSOPC final table I made in the spring, while a smaller cash, resonates as a way more positive experience for me, not just due to the place I finished but also because of how enjoyable the experience was.
I harken back to the infamous LFT thread from one of the pokerhaus clowns back in the day, and this experience has definitely crystallized a lot of that for me. Sometimes, when you're in the middle of an experience, it is difficult to see anything but the joy or sorrow that said experience affords, and if you're completely disconnected from the experience, it's hard to see anything but the result. Real life is probably a combination of both, and figuring out ways to resolve those two things together is a skill I'll probably be working on long past the days where I am as old as Ron.
I have a decently long writeup of hands from the tourney, if you guys want it, I can toss it in. I check in every now and again to see how you guys are all doing, and remain happy that while things have changed, they also haven't changed.